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beent.
“ihavenotspokenaean,”
headded.
“tellthenean,”shesaidat
length.
asifobeyinganinstinct,theybothstopped
and,bendingslightlyoverthebalustradeoftheriver,
lookedintothefloer.
“yousaythattobeho,”ralphbegan.
“veryrytotellyouthefacts;butiwayou,
youllthinkd.itsafact,though,thatsinceifirst
saonthsagoihavedeyou,inan
utterlyabsurdyideal.ilstashad
totellyouethe
thingthatttersstinlife.”hecheckedhielf.
“houtknothatyourebeautiful,and
allthat,iveetobelievethatesortof
agreent;thatethingtogether;thatwe
seesothing.ivegotintothehabitofigining
you;ilhinkingyoudsayordo;iwalk
aloreettalkingtoyou;idreafyou.itsrely
abadhabit,asing;itsan
experiene;well,
thosearethefacts.”
siltaneously,theybothwalkedonveryslowly.
“ifyoueyouhis,”
shesaid.“knoherwevealwaysbeen
interrupted.ethisthatday
auntsca”sheasked,rellegtheene.
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hebowedhishead.
“thedayyoutoldofyagent,”hesaid.
shethought,hastart,thatshewasnolaged.
“idenythatishouldceasetofeelthisifiknewyou,”
heorereasonablythatsall.
ishouldnttalkthekindofnonsealkedtonight
.butitnonsehetruth,”hesaiddoggedly.
“itstheiortantthing.youetotalk
asifthisfeelingforyouion,butall
ourfeelingsarethat.thebestoftherehalfillusions.
still,”headded,asifarguingtohielf,“ifitas
realafeelingasiapableof,ishouldntbeging
lifeonyourat.”
“ean”sheinquired.
“itoldyou.iakingattage.iivingup
profession.”
“onat”sheasked,i.
“yes,onyourat,”hereplied.heexplainedhis
aningnofurther.
“butidontknostances,”shesaid
atlast,ashereinedsilent.
“youhavenoopinionaboutoher”
“yes,isupposeihaveanopinion”shehesitated.
hentrolledhisoaskhertoexplainherself,
andchtohispleasuresheon,appearingtosearch
hernd.
“ithoughtthatyoucriticizedperhapsdisliked.
ithoughtofyouasapersonwhojudges”
“no;ipersone.
“tell,then,adeyoudothis”sheasked,
afterabreak.
hetoldherinanorderlyokeningcarefulpreparation,
allthathehadanttosayatfirst;hoood
other
hadsaid,andhissisterjoanhadrefrainedfroaying;
exaeatthebank;
prospecthisbrotherhadofeaingalivelihoodin
arichouchoftheirineo,and
otherdetailsknobyheart.shelisteoall
this,sothatsheuldhavepassedanexanationinit
bythetierle;ashe
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orelisteningtoitthahe
pavingstoherfeet.shehan
shehadfeltinherlife.ifdenhaldhaveseenhow
visiblybooksofalgebraicsyols,pagesallspeckledh
dotsanddashesandtebeforehereyes
astheytrodtheeanknt,hissecretjoyientihthavebeendispersed.sheon,saying,
“yes,isee.buthohathelpyouyour
brotherhaspassedhisexanation”sosensibly,that
hehadnstantlytokeephisbraininchedallthe
tishehroughatelespeat
eshadodisksheril
shefeltherselfpossessedoftwobodies,onewalkingby
theriver,theotherratedtoasilver
globealoftinthefinebluespaof
vaporsthathevisible
theskyondsahatnostaro
piercetheflightoferycloudsnrapidly
beforethewind.shelookeddownhurriedlyagain.
therehisfeeling
ofhappiness;shefree;shealone;she
illionfibres;everysteptook
heearerho.heless,sheexultedasshehadnever
exultedbefore.theairoredistinct,
theldstohebalustradelderandharder,
ruckherhandagainstit.
nofeelingofannoyancereined;hecertainly
didnothinderanyflightsheghtake,
e;but
thatherndition,ortoanythingthathe
hadsaid,shehadnonsciousall.
theyofcabsand
oibusesthesurreysideofthe
river;thesoundofthetraffiotorhos,
andthelightbellssoundedreandre
distinctly,and,e
silent.ninstincttheyslaedtheir
paeofseprivacyallowed
thetoralph,thepleasureoftheselastyardsofthe
hkatharihatheuldnotlook
beyondthepresentnttothetiwhensheshould
havelefthihehadnoontsof
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theirpanionshipinaddingfreshohe
hadalreadysaid.siheyhadstoppedtalking,she
hadbeetohiotsocharealperson,asthe
veryanhedreaof;buthissolitarydreahad
neverproduysuchkeennessofsensationasthat
selfrangely
transfigured.hehadpletesteryofallhisfaculties.
forthefirsttiheossessionofhisfull
poseedto
havenoperceptibleend.buttheodhadhe
restlessnessorfeverishdesiretoaddonedelighttoanother
arked,andsospoilt,
thestrapturousofhisiginings.itoodthat
tooksuan
lifethathedisturbedinthe
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