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inhernner.flinchedand.
suchseverity,aiedbysothingindescribably
ldandiersonalinhernner,hadnstantly
beetthelastfewdays,always
inthepanyofothers.hehadreupedhielfby
soridiculousdisplayofvanity
hitillreatherrohatheh
herthereulusfroutsidetodratention
froisinjury.byansiderableeffortofselfntrol
heforai,andtokehielf
distinguishpartofhispainovanity,
anreallyloving
hildspeakthus.
“self.
ithatshehadbeenaverydesirableand
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nightandday
distinguishedfigure,thestressofherlittleseof
theorethanthat,shehepersonofall
othersedtohihearbitressoflife,thean
enturallyrightandsteady,ashis
hadneverbeeninspiteofallhisculture.andthenhe
uldnotseehereintoaroooutasenseof
theflos,ofthe
purplehesea,ofallthingsthatarelovelyand
tableonthesurfacebutstillandpassioheir
heart.
“ifsheeandhadonlyledon
tolaughatiuldnthavefeltthatabouther,”he
thought.“iotafool,afterall.ithavebeenutterly
stakenalltheseyears.a,whenshespeaks
tolikethatthetruthofitis,”hethought,“thative
gotsuchdespicablefaultsthatnooneuldhelpspeaking
tolikethat.katharineisquiteright.a
thosearenotseriousfeelings,assheknoe
yselfakeher
e”heptedheretobreakthe
silencebyaskingkatharineinrespectsheuld
gehielftosuither;buthesoughtnsolation
insteadbyrunnihelistofhisgiftsandacquirents,
hisknoin,hisknowledge
ofartandliterature,hisskillintheofters,
andhisauntryblood.butthefeelingthat
underlayallthesefeelingsandpuzzledhirofoundly
ahiileaintythatheloved
katharineassincerelyashehaditinhioloveany
one.asheuldspeaktohiikethatinasort
ofbeealldesiretospeak,andwould
quitereadilyhavetakenupsodifferenttopifion
ifkatharinehadstartedohis,however,
shedidnotdo.
heglanighthelp
hiouandherbehavior.asusual,shehadquied
herpasciously,andtle
infrontofhibutheuldgainlittleinfortionfrobr >
hereyes,eadilyatthebroher,or
frohelinesdrahus
tolosetouchhher,forhehadnoideashewas
thinking,thathebegantotalk
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virginiawoolf
abouthisgrievancesagain,uvi
inhisvoice.
“ifyouhavenofeelingfor,itbekio
saysotoinprivate”
“oh,,”sheburstout,asifhehadinterruptedso
abstrainofthought,“hofeelings
isntitbetteottotalksoottobewalways
aboutsllthingsthatdontreallytter”
“thatsthequestionprecisely,”heexclaid.“ionly
ethattheydohereare
tisindifferenttoeverything.iain,
iveathousandfaults;butyouknoheyrenoteverything;
youknoareforyou.”
“andifisaythatie”
“sayit,katharinesayitasifyouantitke
feelthatyoue”
sheuldnotforceherselftospeakaher
arouhehorizonted
outbyist.toaskherforpassionorforcertainty
seedlikeaskingthatdaprospectforfiercebladesof
fire,orthefadedskyfortheintensebluevaultofjune.
heonnootellherofhisloveforher,inwords
poftruth;
buthistouchedher,until,ingtoagate
y,heheaveditopenhhisshoulder,
stilltalkingandtakingnoatofhiseffort.the
virilityofthisdeediressedher;a,norlly,she
attaovaluetothepoes.the
strengthofscleshasnothingtodoonthefaceofit
hthestrengthofaffes;heless,shefelta
suddehispooeonher
at,binedhadesiretokeeppossession
ofthatstratractivesepoade
herrouseherselffroertorpor.
plytellhihetruthh
inastystateofnd
hinghaditsrightshapeorsizethatitwas
deplorable,butthatarriagewas
outofthequestionshedidnotarryanyone.
shee
bleaknortheor,audythetid
thesy.tywordswouldexplain
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nightandday
the.hehadceasedtospeak;he
hadtoldheroncerehowhelovedherandwhy.she
suonedherurage,fixedhereyesuponalightning
splinteredashtree,and,alstasifshewerereadinga
ingfixedtothetrunk,began:
“iake
youhappy.ihaveneverlovedyou.”
“kathariested.
“no,never,”sherepeatedobstinately.“nhtly.dont
yousee,ididntknoiwasdoing”
“youlovesooneelse”hecuthershort.
“absolutelynoone.”
“henry”hedended.
“henryishouldhavethought,,evenyou”
“thereissoone,”hepersisted.“therehasbeena
geifeetobe
ho,katharine.”
“ifiuld,iwould,”shereplied.
“eyouarry,then”he
dended.
ontofpessisasuddenn
vioftheundeniableproseoflife,alapseofthe
illusionidweenheaven
ah,adesperateattettorencileherselfh
faont,asof
adreaedtoherantofsurrender.
buthesefordoing
shehaddonesheshookherheadverysad
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