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presents.
“haventialhinkingofkatharinewhilei
ighthavelovedryifithadntbeen
forthatidioine.sheeonce,iertain
ofthat,butitorntedhersoyhursthat
iletcesslip,andn
.andthisisadeoflifenothing,nothing,
nothing.”
thetraoftheirbootsuponthedryroadseedto
asseveratenothing,nothing,nothing.rythoughtthat
thissilencehesilenceofrelief;hisdepressionshe
ascribedtothefactthathehadseenkatharineandparted
froer,leavihepanyofrodney.
sheuldnotblahiorlovingkatharithat,
arryhibr >
thatseedtoherthecruellesttreachery.theiroldfriendship
anditsfiraseupoructiblequalitiesof
charactercruled,andheredfoolish,
herselferelytheshellof
an.oh,thepastsochdeupofralph;
andnoadeupofsothingstrangeand
falseandotherthahoughtit.shetriedto
recaptureasayingshehaddetohelpherselfthat
ing,asralphpaidthebillforlun;butshe
uldseehiayingthebillrevividlythansheuld
reerthephrase.sothingabouttruth;
hooseethetruthisreatthisworld.
“ifyoudontarry,”ralphnowbeganagain,
houtabruptness,hdiffideher,“thereisno
needoseeeachother,isthereor
herthatforthe
present”
“keepapartidontknoustthinkaboutit.”
“tellohing,ry,”heresud;“haveidone
anythingtokeyouindabout”
sheetedtogiveoheatural
trustinhirevivedbythedeepandnoelancholy
tonesofhisvoiofherlove,andof
edlikelythat
she,thecertainty
thathedidnotloveher,nfirdbyeverywordofhis
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proposal,forbadeanyfreedofspee
speakandtofeelherselfuoreply,ornstrained
inherreplies,e
orepliantanwould
havetakenthisceofanexplanation,everrisks
attaarysfirndresolute
teerantthereionintheideaofself
abandonheotionriseeversohigh,
sheuldnotshuthereyestoshenceivedtobe
thetruth.hersilencepuzzledralph.hesearchedhis
ryfhthavedeher
thinkbadlyofhiinhispresentodinstancesca
buttooquithisating
proofofhisbasehathehadaskedhertorry
hiaproposalwereselfish
andhalfhearted.
“youansly.“therearereasons
enough,iknousttheykillourfriendship,
ryletkeepthat,atleast.”
“oh,”shethoughttoherself,hasuddenrushof
anguishhreateneddisastertoherselfrespect,
“ithasetothistothisouldhavegiven
hiverything”
“yes,ness
sheuldster.
“ishallyourfriendship,”hesaid.headded,“if
youfinditpossible,letseeyouasoftenasyou.
theoftehebetter.ishallyourhelp.”
sheprosedthis,andtheylyof
thingsthathadnorefereheirfeelingsatalkh,
initsnstraint,.
onererefereothestateofthings
betlatethatnight,hhadgone
toherrooaenhadstuledoffto
bedinsuchastateofsleepthattheyhardlyfeltthefloor
beheirfeetafteradaysshooting.
rydretlehefire,forthe
logseofnightitwas
hardly.ralphwasreading,
butshehadhathiseyesinstead
offolloheprintherabovethepage
thatcatoweighuponher
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nd.shehadnottogive
adeherrebitterlycertain
that,ifshegaveoherownwish
andnottohis.butshehaddeterhattherewasno
reasonicehe
causeofhissuffering.therefore,althoughshefoundit
painful,shespoke:
“youaskedifihadgedndaboutyou,
ralph,”shesaid.“ithinktheresonlyohing.when
youaskedtorryyou,idontthinkyouantit.
thatdeangryforthent.before,youdalways
spokeh.”
ralphsbooksliddohe
floor.herestedhisforeheadonhishandandlookedinto
thefire.heryingtorecalltheexacth
hehaddehisproposaltory.
“ineversaidilovedyou,”hesaidatlast.
sheforsayinghe
did,forthis,afterall,entofthetruthh
shehadvooliveby.
“andteh
while,”shesaid.
“notgoingtopressyou,”hesaid.“isee
youdontarry.butlovedontalka
greatdealofnonsenseaboutiteani
believeieha
ofteheentheyreisonlya
storyonekesupinonesndaboutanotherperson,
andonekisnttrue.ofurseone
knoakingottodestroythe
illusion.oakestoooften,orto
bealooolongtogether.itsapleasant
illusion,butifyourethinkingoftheriskse,it
seetothattheriskapersonyourein
loveethinglossal.”
“idontbelieveaoreyou
doher,”sherepliedhanger.“ho
agree;ionlyedyoutouand.”sheshiftedher
position,asifshetogo.aninstinctivedesire
topreventherfroeavingtherooaderalphriseat
thispointandbeginpagupanddopty
kit,cheghisdesire,eachtihereachedthe
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